And yesterday, after just one day on the market, someone walked into our home in Escondido and fell in love, just as I had 20 years earlier. So yesterday our house sold. And today my heart is breaking. Sure, I had anticipated that there would be some struggle, but I don’t think I anticipated the ache in my gut and the ready tears. I didn't anticipate how difficult "letting go" would be. I know that I will adjust and that there will be a time when I wake up to sunshine and a view and birds and a breeze coming in through an open window. I know that day is coming. But today I long for those familiar places and those cherished people and today I am feeling sad.
Tomorrow I will get back to dreaming. Maybe I will do a little “farm shopping.” I’ll take the dogs for walk and enjoy the beautiful park down the street, and maybe have coffee with a new friend. And tomorrow, when Mark comes home from work with such a big smile on his face, I will feel good about this decision. I know that in order to chase our dreams, I have to be able to let go of the past... just a little...at least enough to grab onto the present.
So tomorrow I will get back to dreaming. Today I will work on letting go.